skipper

so... I skipped class on a Monday. Its so not like me. But I did. Its just American Lit, and its with Speer, so I'm sure I can make that up too. I don't know whats going on with me lately. 
My brain is so worn out and my stress level has reached its peak. I think I need just a little R&R or maybe a vacation to some exotic place called Las Vegas. 
I just really need to be away for a while. I never felt so stressed and stuck in my entire life! Hopefully today will be different. But I think that its time to finally break routine. The only issue with me breaking routine is that I will fail. I am pretty much convinced that if I don't have a routine then I will flunk out of college. It kind of freaks me out. But I really want to do something out of the ordinary. Something in my life needs to change. I NEED SOMETHING NEW.
I need a new muse. I need to not be focused SO much that I don't even recognize what around me. I have turned into some type of square. AND THAT'S NOT COOL. I used to be down for any and everything. and now I work on Friday nights and stay at home afterwards. I wake up Saturday mornings and work the ENTIRE day, and come home and do homework. That has got to change. 

Its my junior year, I think its time for me to have a little fun. Otherwise I have the privilege of saying how dumb my college years were. death. 
Well, I have to go do homework on my skipped morning. Good job for changing bri!
Love you all.

-B

Comments

davernavid said…
your not gonna fail out... i know it.. i mean your so smart. you got this you know? just during these hard times just do it one day at a time.. just know what you got to do for that day and just do it. dont think about tomrow or the rest of the week or even the rest of the semester. just live one day at a time, and during the times you have fun, let yourself have fun :)

i love you bri. :) im praying for you.
November 11, 2008 at 1:11 PM
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