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So, Im reading Patiences blog, and texting her... and I begin to think about the youth heavily. They are our future. And the only thing we can think about supporting is ourselves. I look at it IN MY OWN FAMILY. These kids find is necessary to flip off the camera to protect their images. They make it ok to spell things LIKEE THIZS. wtf. that doesnt even say anything. I want there to be a way to tell them that it is ok to be uncool. I wish there was a way to support them. Not only through the church, but reach out to those who dont even think about church. Maybe even persuade them to think about church even? I really feel like this is where I can make a difference in their lives. C'MON PEOPLE LETS CHANGE! ily -Briii

Just give me an answer to fake people. I just dont understand why they exist? They only exist to put on a face to society that is virtually false. Hence the name fake people. They drive me crazy. Why all of a sudden do they act that way. What would make someone think that I want the fake them? What the fuck about you is real with me? WHAT THE FUCK. I just dont understand. All I can think about is a plastic barbie doll. When I think of this in correlation to fake people, all I think about it how easily breakable barbies are. When I was little at least, it was so easy to break their little legs off, but it was so damn hard to put them back on. The same with fake people, once they start putting on this persona with you, it is almost guaranteed that they will never get rid of it and it will be hard to turn it off. The more and more you live with someone, you figure out who they are. I am figuring this out and observing very closely how some people are. Not saying I am perfect or anything, ...

so... I skipped class on a Monday. Its so not like me. But I did. Its just American Lit, and its with Speer, so I'm sure I can make that up too. I don't know whats going on with me lately.  My brain is so worn out and my stress level has reached its peak. I think I need just a little R&R or maybe a vacation to some exotic place called Las Vegas.  I just really need to be away for a while. I never felt so stressed and stuck in my entire life! Hopefully today will be different. But I think that its time to finally break routine. The only issue with me breaking routine is that I will fail. I am pretty much convinced that if I don't have a routine then I will flunk out of college. It kind of freaks me out. But I really want to do something out of the ordinary. Something in my life needs to change. I NEED SOMETHING NEW. I need a new muse. I need to not be focused SO much that I don't even recognize what around me. I have turned into some type of square. AND THAT'S NO...

Dang. Sometimes life can hit you really fast. But as I sit here, and evaluate what little life I have left. I have learned that I have to love what I got. Yanno? I mean some people dwell on the fact that they have to be doing everything. And there are some people, like myself, who want to do everything but has no time for it. Constantly creating the ongoing sentence of " My life consists of nothing." But now that I am beginning to wind down on the semester, I am finding that every once in a while I have a little opening to do what ever the heck I want to do. Without having to worry about responsibilities of course. So for now, I think that no matter how much work I dig myself into, I am going to appreciate the new openings that I have. YA DIGG!? -Bri